Yes, I'm still alive (at least as far as I can tell :)). What's been going on these past few weeks? Well, that's a good question and I'm not sure what the answer is. Work, I guess. It's been a somewhat redefining time for me, a time to look at my life and evaluate where I am, how I'm doing, and where I want to go. For the past couple of weeks I've felt like I'm a completely different person, not necessarily for the better. It's almost like somebody jamming my brain frequency or something. But there are moments here and there where it goes away and all is well.
Hmm. Anyway, today after church I watched two of the Church welfare videos ("Pure Religion" and "Ye Have Done It Unto Me"), and I realized that what I
really want to do for my life's work is help other people -- service, humanitarian kind of stuff. It's something I could throw my whole heart into without wondering if what I'm doing is right or not. Now, of course, the question is this: is this a viable career option? (Um, I don't know of any philanthropy schools around. :)) Is there any way to pull it off as a career, or will it be something on the side -- perhaps assist with it indirectly in whatever career I end up in. It seems like my future changes every week, wandering hither and thither with wild abandon. I wish it were clear, so I'd know what to prepare for. But I guess it'll be one of those line upon line, precept upon precept things. ~sigh~
At work we're still getting ready for the launch of our software. It's getting close. (Ostensibly we launch on September 1st, but I think we'll be ready long before then.) Working for a cause greater than oneself is an amazing feeling. That's what I want to be doing all my life -- not just doing things for the sake of doing them, but doing them to build up something great and wondrous (in this case family history and the redemption of the dead).